Growing up, I had a bad habit of biting my nails. Blame it on anxiety, nervousness or just not feeling my hands were pretty enough. In recent years, I’ve let them grow and get them done as needed. They’ve grown so long, that I shy away from a cut each time I go for a fill in. Yesterday afternoon, the acrylic used to protect my nail fell off and an hour later, my long nail broke. I sat in the car in disbelief, trying to find the broken nail as if I could salvage it.
I have a bad habit of hanging on to things and to people long after I’ve outgrown them.
I have tried to rationalize under the fact I’m sentimental, and I like to preserve. How do you preserve a relationship that’s dying or dead? How do you save or make room for an object you no longer need?
Decluttering my life is a frequent struggle I deal with. Even though intuition screams “it’s time”, actions of the other parties and myself included, reveal it’s ok to move on; I still think it’s my duty to stay still. I’ve somehow convinced myself change is underway and that person or thing will render itself useful again.
In a society where we’re ever changing/evolving, we will shed the old or outdated. Our spirit communes with us, yet we silence it out of fear of the unknown or simply being hardheaded.
Once I got myself together and reconciled the nail needed to go, l realized the big lesson in this. Holding on to items, people, or memories that no longer serve us in any capacity, is dead weight.
My nails symbolize all the crap I try to hold on to, in spite of the pain it causes. There were multiple times during the week, I couldn’t even button my shirt. I made concessions and ultimately, the universe made the decision for me.
Did it hurt? Initially, it did. Soon after, I began to understand the larger meaning. It’s ok to outgrow situations, material things, and people.
The same way I understood the pollution of reality TV and let that go, is the same way I should proceed with other aspects in my life. Sometimes we stunt our growth by blocking that greater blessing/opportunity from coming in by holding on.
I challenge you all to spring clean your life instead of letting the universe do it. We are blessed with the intuition, the gut feeling, the whisper that will not go away, instructing us that better is coming…